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THE CHARACTER

Character Name: Roman (given name is Ian Kruger, chosen name is Roman)
Series: Blindspot
Canon Point: End of Season 2, prior to two-year time skip
Character Age: 29/30
Background: LINK.

Personality:
Anyone first meeting Roman would undoubtedly think that he's a little different. He can seem strange, and conversations with him may be a little stilted and awkward, not always flowing naturally. He tends to be more laconic, not giving much information at times, or at least not right away. He does a lot of thinking, lost in his own thoughts, without always realizing it may be helpful to those around him if he surfaces from those thoughts at times. These characteristics were bred in him over a lifetime of being trained, conditioned, and manipulated by others. Roman is used to being submissive, but when he feels comfortable with someone and believes he's free and open to speak, he is capable of eventually opening up more, expressing his thoughts and emotions. But by the very nature of his upbringing, Roman is still not always the best at expressing himself in a normal and healthy way; he can have a short fuse of a temper when he feels threatened, but is also very good at burying his emotions as a defense mechanism. There are times when he may seem overly vulnerable to the point of seeming childlike in some regards, his mental and emotional development somewhat stunted due to the traumas he's suffered in his life. He has a deep, abiding need for love, connections, and validation, and he's still learning how to express that in productive ways.

Roman and his sister were forced into a child soldier program at a young age, after witnessing their parents' murder. Roman was the more sensitive, tender-hearted of the two siblings; as such, he suffered early on, often a target of bullies and the orphanage caretakers. In order to survive, he had to learn the hide the things he loved, and this formed much of his personality and who he would become as an adult. He's been diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, lacking an ability to feel empathy and love, but there is a clear and obvious dichotomy between the Roman who was manipulated and brainwashed, and the Roman with the tender heart still buried beneath the surface, fighting to get out. He was trained to kill people, and he did. He hurt many people, but by his own admission, he never wanted to, and he never enjoyed it. He was always under orders, and it was the only life he'd ever known.

When his memories were recently and temporarily erased (by his sister, in a desperate attempt to give him a chance at a better life), we had a glimpse at who Roman really was without the brainwashing he'd endured. This Roman was lost and vulnerable, with a quiet and peaceful nature. He was scared of the man he'd once been, fearful of the world because he didn't know or understand his place in it, but he never wanted to be a monster again, never wanted to go back to the old Roman and hurt people. He feels an emptiness inside of him, all of his emotions muted, even the extreme ones like love and hate. But he still wants to try and do good, and as his memories slowly return, despite his anger at his sister for taking away his memories for a short time, Roman now knows what it feels like to be a better person, to be free of the manipulation and control his mother had over him, and that's the life he wants.

He has many weaknesses, but his most important ones are possessing a short fuse when he's angry and provoked. His anger is not a constant, but it can be fierce in times when he feels personally threatened or attacked. He doesn't express himself well at times, simply becoming emotional without giving a full explanation for what he's feeling. Roman is capable of violence, and he's hurt many people, but he doesn't kill or hurt anyone because he enjoys it or he wants to, he's under orders. So to expand on that, another weakness of his would be that he can be easily influenced, especially when he's emotional, and he can't see all sides of a given situation, he can only see his side/the side he was told to follow. He needs to be more open-minded, and this is something he's more capable of now, being away from his mother's influence, but it's also something that will take time for him to de-condition himself to. For all his faults and his many sins, Roman is not remorseless, nor is he a sadistic person, but he will have a lot of self-loathing to overcome, and this could lead to a bit too much self-depracating and self-destruction on his part.

Roman's strengths are that he is loyal, protective, brave, and persistent. He is capable of love, but he's unfamiliar with expressing it. However, this is something he wants to understand and learn more about. He is capable of doing kind and compassionate things, as well, and with his memories wiped, we see this is part of his core personality, though these tendencies were muted and blocked out as a result of his conditioning. Away from the world he knew, separated from all that negative influence, these more positive traits will be allowed more room to flourish, especially with positive, kind, and loving influences.

For much of his life, Roman was motivated by executing one solitary mission: to overthrow the United States government. This was a result of a belief that the government was corrupt, that many innocent people were killed and/or hurt by the people in power, who simply wanted more power, who viewed innocent people as collateral damage. Roman and his family believed the government had lost its mind, and that it needed to be overthrown, with more righteous, incorruptible people put in power. At his core, his intentions were good, but the execution of this plan was terribly flawed because they harmed innocent people themselves, in their mission to stop people they thought were terrible. Roman was devoted to this cause, allowing room for nothing else in his life. As a point of assurance, Roman will not try to harm anyone around him in a game setting. He's not a violent person by nature, and he's also not the type to start conspiring to overthrow any other leadership around him. His willingness to go along with his family's mission was entirely due to wanting to follow their lead, not be left behind.

For a brief period of time, Roman pursued a romantic relationship, and he even contemplated running away with the woman he loved, but his devotion to his cause with his ultimately overrode that. This further proves, however, that love is something he is not only capable of, but desires.

With his primary mission in life now failed, and his world ended, Roman's completely lost and aimless. He has no family members breathing down his neck, telling him what to think or feel, and his primary motivation now will simply be to understand himself better. He also will want to try and be a more normal person, to understand what it means to feel and think the way others do. There's so much about life that he never had a chance to explore, so many things he never had the opportunity to really enjoy, and he'll want to explore all of this. Something as simple as human touch and connection is fairly foreign to him, so this will motivate him to deal with his emotions and his emotional baggage, to try and be worthy of something better.

Powers/Abilities:

Able to speak Spanish

Highly skilled with weaponry and self-defense

Power Nerfs (if applicable): N/A

Inventory: Roman will arrive with the clothes he's wearing, cell phone, and a book (100 Years of Solitude).

Incentives:
1. Roman has a complicated relationship with his sister, Jane Doe, but he would still want assurances that she be kept safe.
2. In a fit of anger, Roman threw away a very special coin that he and his sister had kept in the orphanage. It's sitting somewhere at the bottom of the Hudson River, but if that could be found and given to him, it would mean the world to him.
3. The more he remembers about himself and the terrible things he did, the worse he feels. Memories are a tricky thing to mess with, but if there was a way for some of his more awful memories to be taken away, he'd be highly motivated to do whatever was asked of him.

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